Anyway, Baby 2 is due May 8, 2009, on my neice Jorja's third birthday. Brye and I are still struggling on whether I'm to go back to work or stay home. I never imagined myself being a stay at home mom, but a non-profit organization doesn't really pay the daycare bill. I have to admit being a mother of two is a lot scarier than just a mother of one. Will I really loves this one as much as I love Bexley? Can I juggle two year old tantrums and newborn cries at the same time?
The other side to all this is that I no longer have my mom to lean on and ask questions. She'd be the one to reassure me of course you will love the second as much as the first. She'd be the one who was there to catch me when I felt like I was falling. I know she'll be there, just not the way I want her there. I actually had a dream the other night that I went to a prenatal appointment and the baby's heartbeat was irregular and I was hospitalized. My mom was there. I guess that is God's way of reminding me she really hasn't left me; she's here.
Thankfully I have a fabulous husband and three wonderful sisters that I know will be here for me and a mother in law that I'm sure will be here too. It is wonderful to have such a great family.